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I went thru the rain and to admit I already have the rainbow. In terms of everything in life. From the family, studies, working, friends and the other half whom I found only in 2006. Whether I will last with the other half is not the question. It is all abt enjoying the company and the love he showered me. Well, if it don't last, there's nothing I can do abt it. Fate that is.
The sad experiences which happened in life taught me alot of things that my life had changed tremendously. Some might assumed I had never moved on. Just because I do not frequently update abt everyday life in blogs, friendster or whatsoever sources they are able to find. People I'd met and who already walked out of my life, I wish them all the best in their future endeavours. For those who still can't accept the apologies I made, I shall accept that and will only let Allah SWT decide and judge my intentions. Becos no one will ever know the truest sincerity of an individual besides Allah SWT Himself.
As what I'd said last year to 2006, I am saying the same thing again. 2007 will be another new opening of my lifestory. Yesterday is a history, tt's what I remind myself again and again. Either you keep it as a lesson or dump it away.
I've already prepared new plans for 2007. Insya Allah it will happen if I put in more effort than what I had done for 2006. Honestly, I am happy for what I had left behind and what had changed in the present and Insya Allah also the future. Praying that I am still guided to a better life by The Greatest in this coming year.
So readers, wishing you Selamat Hari Raya Haji and Happy new year. May you have a hard-kicking fun life journey for the upcoming year. Remember, you can never change your past. However, there are still plenty of time to change the present and future. :)
10:20 AM
My grandma was saying, "Masya Allah... skrg dua perempuan meninggal naik motor. Yani tgk ni. Kenal tak perempuan ni dua?" Therefore, I approached my grandma and it took me quite sometime to recognise them. Till, I read further details of the article, I recalled Nadia's name and confirmed that I knew one of them.
She was a very nice girl. I really mean very. For a senior whom I rarely spoke to in sch back then, she acknowledged me outside even we were out of sch. I mean.. she really make the effort to make a conversation with me everytime we bumped to each other. Her face seemed unfriendly but she is not what you think. She had the sense of humour. I considered her that she was way better than other seniors I met before where they would pretend that they didn't see me or smtg. Even thou' she was a normal technical student, she was very smart indeed. In addition, very confident too. You do not need to be in express stream to consider yourself smart, right? Maybe that point of time, her weakness was being lazy. Becos the papers wrote that she was a house agent before she passed away. Could be a side line job. O well.. I was abit affected when I got to know about her death.
Lesson learnt... One do not need to go to the gym always to keep fit hoping that you'll live longer. One should not have the mentality thinking car is safer to be sompared to bike. And etc.. Cos the fact is, death takes place anytime and anywhere. Unexpectedly. Maybe I should start smtg new in life...
11:30 PM
Miss Zafirah!!
(Kalau dah dpt jodoh kat sana tu, jgn lupa lah kongsi dgn rakan Mu di sini ye...)
When 'The Purplish' combine!!!
The people who sent her off and also the moment where Firah's mum was actually waving away but saying, "Mana Kakak kau?" (In other words, she was waving to nobody.)
THE END
1:05 AM
4:17 PM
There's always this thinking which every individual would have as they grew up, where the past should be smtg that we must learn to forget abt. Nothing on associating on a person's maturity level. Actually, it depends on each individual themselves on how in handling the past into the future. So, when I met an old friend just now at the Wedding. Surprisingly, we still get along well. Maybe due to embarrasment or ego, I don't know... for we didn't exchange numbers just like others did. It was a sad thing, we drifted apart. We can't deny the fact we have "clash personalities". I chose to give up in giving in. Cos I am growing up myself to start with my own personal beliefs on my own rights. Maybe Allah has His reasons for not letting us to get along well. Not in terms of hatred, but just not being close like we used to.
Wedding and Engagement ceremonies touched my heart. Seeing the people you grew up with is gg to have starting their own family and all, you can never stop yourself wishing them happiness for the future. To think abt the past, the stupid things we did, brought lotsa laughters when we started talking abt it during the reunion and ended up having teary eyes. Both ceremonies that I went, I feel love is surrounding the air. You just can feel it. Just so hard for me to describe.
Everyone asking each other this same stupid question,"So when is it going to be your turn?" Some gave a definite age and year to be married and I gave this lame answer,"Not till I am a millionaire myself." Heh. Yes, they made fun of it ok. Saying I ended up nt wanting to get married becos after that I am worried that my husband would take my wealth away. Stupid... Heh. Then I say, "No lah.. See my fate. If the man I am dating with is fated to be mine, he shall be then. No point being choosy also. My fate is not only at the palm of my hands mah..."
I was very much enjoyed ZoukOut yest with girlfriends and him with his friends. I dunno how to define the crowds but all I can say, it was crowded. Abit settled by 5 am cos most left by then. Bumped into long lost friends was a real joy and questions keep on filling the conversations. Even thou' it was packed, the plc was small enough for you to bump into people you didn't expect to see tt point of time.
Congratulations to the girlfriends on this SPECIAL DAY, 10th December 2006.
9:11 PM
I came late so I missed all of the fun. The lucky draws, the games, the buffet and blah.. blah.. blah.. Sure do pissed but still had fun with the schmates even the party was over. Its ok nt having nice dance songs on the floor but it was all the GREAT COMPANY that matters...
11:40 AM
13:20:20
08-10-2006
Which means I didn't know abt the msg being sent to me for nearly 58 days!!! Gosh!! I ran to Ibu's room and asked, "Why didn't you tell me?!!" For a reason, she didn't know it as I didn't store the number into the phone. (Ibu is currently using my previous number. Not becos it is under contract. I don't know why I insist of having Ibu to keep that number and throw away her ol' one. )
I found out that it was kinda funny for I thought I did msg thru my current new number. I checked my hp and to find..... I stored the wrong number. So that explains why I've never received any reply. Assumptions in thinking on how badly you would wanna ignore me were solved by the msg which I just read one and a half hour ago.
It's like De javu.
I wasn't sure whether it was for me. But I read it... Only just now.
There's a few lines you might have misunderstood on the whole picture that I wanna tell you through the previous 'letter'. It just seemed so hard. To explain. Never for once I denied your sincerity towards me. I was just trying to tell you things that you don't know. I just don't know how to say it. Yes, nothing would be the same. Do not remind me of it. Too many things to tell. I am not sure where to start. The best thing is to just keep it for I know you wouldn't be bothered to listen. You can't even read in between the lines. Nor the words. It's my fault for nt making the approach to talk. It's my fault that you misinterprate what I am trying to tell you. Maybe, I am being plain stupid for falling for sweet nothings... Thank you. For accepting my apologies.
*Nd not to apologize abt the movie. For the fact is I got myself addicted to it.*
12:50 AM
11:41 AM
The launch of Toki Doki nvr fails to excite the Collectors. They will buy more than 2 bags upon their purchase!! This been going on since the launching of the new prints. The collective bags come in diff sizes and prices. Let say, they are range from S$280 to S$635. Purses going at S$90 to S$190. Everyday running in and out frm the store room and entertaining the Collectors, would really make me skinny-bonny one day if the collective bags keep on launching new prints every 3 mths. Do not bother to expecting it to go on discount after one year. Becos the whole idea is it will never go on discount. Only tt currently they are giving 10% esp for Isetan Cardholders. I'm waiting for the Last Toki Doki collection which will be launching next year and aimed to buy one of the sizes already. With a lame reason, it's a New Year and the Last Collection of Toki Doki. Heh.
If you wanna get my life updated, girlfriends... Do ring me. Love you. Love you. Love you.
8:32 PM
9:03 PM
Thank you to those who took the time to answering the survey sent the other day.
12:16 AM
I was really happy in knowing how people remembered my special day and especially those whom I contact maybe 5 times a year. I thought they would have just forgotten about me. I was wrong. It touched my heart and believed it or not, i got tears rolling down my cheeks, tears filled with happiness. I can't ask for more.
As I had celebrated advance with the love one, I decided to stay home as it is Monday. Everyone will be busy with work and all. Date with Hunz got cancelled becos I am being a lazybum to get out when it is pouring heavily outside the house. But to my surprise, after a short nap, I saw the family members gave me a surprise mini celebration at home and Ibu cooked delicious food for the day. But, what's with the "nasi minyak"?!! Haha! Of course, Ibu is nt hinting me to get married. Just find it weird to have "nasi minyak" for my birthday. Okay.. At least, it's not nasi briyani. Not too bad after all.
His treat to a 4 days 3 nights KL-trip as a birthday gift was awesome!! I enjoyed the adventures walking ard by foot but due to the bad weather becos it rain heavily there, we gotta flagged a cab at times. Which I do not really like as can't see alot of things when you are in a cab. Wondering whether I shopped till I dropped? Honestly, I shopped till I dropped DEAD!! I was wishing so badly to spend another day there as it was just away frm my busy, fast moving schedules in Singapore. He gave me another birthday present in KL and it was just those happy moments when I got speechless. Of course, not proposing to me. But it was just a dress that I've been eyeing on, which I was contemplating in getting it as the price was far too off for me.
I did nt get to take lotsa a pic and shall not post it all cos most was blur. Think I need to spend on another digicam. Cos the digicam really need to be send to "ICU". It went flat easily that I even need to bring the digicam charger along during the trip!
Besides that, I was amazed by a solo angklung musician which I witness his performance at the Central Market. Love this song but I was dumb enough to actually not record the chorus!!
9:24 PM
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5:34 PM
Bugger.. My apologies for nt coming to the wonderful and enjoyable bbq pit today which is in courtesy of your fiancee, "MyDin". I am working today lah. Lastly, I wanna say to you is... LOVE YOU LAH BEATCH!
11:51 PM
Just like any other human beings. I hate it. One thing for sure, we can't run away from it. Just hear those things which is none of our consent and ignore it. As usual, being the listener, can also put you in a spot. Waiting for the time when they'll make you choose. If I could, I wanna be given the choice to scream at them all, "Just solve it among yourselves and stop spreading it like bacteria!!"
Who says that some jobscopes are easy to handle? Even just being a sales promoter. No jobscopes are to be described easy even if you are a cleaner or a Managing Director in a famous company.. It's always the "either...or" situation. Either you'll have easy jobscope but bad management of the company or difficult jobscope but not bad working environment, or both of it benefits you or both of it suck.
Shall put all the mundane stuffs aside for now...
It was a nice short outing yest. Not everyone went for the raya-outing cos it was a last minute thingy of which I had cancelled what ever plans I planned for the day. I admit, it was crazy!
11:35 AM